spring break full of work??

thats right, i dont have the most relaxed spring break -.-

i mean i have math homework and just a teeny bit of lit and comp homework, so its not the worst but i still have to memorize like ten frank sinatra songs and of course youtube helps but not alot and i dont read sheet music so i cant follow along perfectly and i need to memorize all the lyrics because when i get back its nonstop lunch rehearsals and block 7's and the boys are gonna have more since we're gonna do this whole rat pack thing and its like a big bomb exploding in my face! asdfghjkl
so ya for the next week imma just be listening to my songsday in and day out (with the occasional reading of a book and hanging out with someone)
#funstuff?maybe not
-*L*B*

p.s. when im bored i like to look at fire :P its just mee

$tR3sSEd

Ok so this hasn't been the most fun day since after school. I'm sitting on the couch before I have to get back to work!
My schoolwork to do list:
1. Record and blah blah blah finish my song for lit and comp
2. Do the write up for that up there ^
3. Study my songs for this other project as well as study for the science test tomorrow

~~~~~so much for going to be by 8:45
-*L*B*

anger

its never enough. nothing is ever enough. i work my butt off for good grades. be involved in extracurricular things that i'm occasionally even pushed into doing. be responsible and everything. but its never enough, theres always that constant "no". i mean yes i realize the little things they do for me and im grateful,,but come on. i constantly do my personal best and its never enough. will it ever be enough?

ANGRY

no one likes you.

theres always that joking around of those words, i'll admit i use them sometimes too even if its joking. although i never realize how close they can strike at your heart

-*L*B*

alone.

Today has got me feeling strangely odd. I feel like something's not right...I wish some of my friends would answer their phone. I hope they're not ignoring me...ugh anxiety
-*L*B*

life

heyy everyone! its saturday morning, and this is like my actual first post. i just had lunch (shrimp yum!) and im just thinking of thoughts. while listening to "Suggestions" by Orelia. pretty deep song. anyway, with my thoughts of life. it brings me back to a book we read in literature and composition (fancy schamncy term for language arts).
the books called Farenheit 451, by Ray Bradbury. it deals with this technologically obsessed society. it brings up many questions including that of being "truly happy". then i wonder if im "truly happy"? i mean, i am way better compared to how i was last summer. i lost, depressed, anxiety-ridden soul. but even now that im in a better place, a better school, with better friends, i contemplate. like im at this school for singing and acting, but i dont always hang with those classmates, i hang with different art oriented people. i dont hang occasionally with my classmates because i feel like the outcast. maybe its just me? or maybe its because my classmates and i are made different?? idk. whatever. i know for the moment i may not be rainbows and sunshine, but im not skulls and death.
That can do for now,

-*L*B*