maybe its just me?

hmmmmm......I feel sometimes like I do more than my brother. Maybe its just in my head and maybe I am just being selfish. But I constantly feel like I do more things than my brother. Things like calling someone or answering the phone, helping with groceries, stuff like that which my brother is physically capable of doing too. whatever, I'll just deal with it later -*L*B*

im back!

Hi guys! I am back! It has been awhile but a lot has gone on that I cannot wait to talk about! ok well first, school has ended! we got out last thursday! checked my grades today, all A's except 2 B's! one of them should be an A but my stupid spanish teacher never counted my missing assignment i turned in as well as my leftover extra credit homework passes! but whatever, thats life and thats just how it goes :P Speaking of school, last week was also finals! I felt like I did farely well on them! and we got...Yearbooks! I got mine the monday we were allowed to get them! turning in textbooks went by smoothly and I didn't lose or damage any I had!(: But...you can't always have good days. There was this girl...really good friends with her and we dated, and then she broke up with me. She didn't want anything to change with our friendship but lets be real, nothing ever stays the same. We don't talk everyday anymore like we used to, but I am holding my head up high and moving on! Which brings me to my next exciting thing to talk about... SUMMER!!!!! kicked off the first hours of summer after school by going to the mall with friends, grabbing lunch, and helping me fix my bad wardrobe :P these next few days have been kinda boring, all my friends are on the washington d.c./n.y. trip, but they get back soon! Meanwhile, I work at church and work at a theatre doing lights and sound. Yesterday I went to my brothers promotion and after our parents suprised us with graduation/birthday presents...IPADS! However we must also use it for school work and we had to pay for half (but still!) and today with my own money i bought myself a wireless keyboard :3 and as my parents anniversary gift to each other they bought an imac! Yay getting rid of the old pc! Our pc right now is slower than a snail -_- but now we are pretty much an apple family! and coming up in a few days is our parents 25th wedding anniversary! I'm so happy they are able to stay together so long after a bunch of their friends have gotten divorces. Tomorrow my sister is throwing them this party with all their friends invited and there will be food and dancing and I can't wait! And a suprise for pretty much the whole family came today! My sisters suprise for my parents were bringing our cousins (from colorado) here for the week! They came over today and we had a fun filled day and I'm sure more are to come! This week has been really good(: Anyways, its late, imma sleep! -*L*B*

It does get better?

so to my few readers, if you ever feel sad or down in the dumps it will get better<3 im so happy now, and i probably couldn't have said that a year ago today,
-*L*B*

quote~

"I don't want to waste my breath trying to talk when you don't bother to even listen"- anonymous

Week be over!

Ok so I cannot wait for this week to end!! Tomorrow I have star testing and on Thursday. Was I supposed to study?? Bleh. Anyway and finally Sinatra is Friday so I can get rid of these songs in my head. I'm kind of over 8th grade; I think high school will be more fun!! But i dont know,,,this whole situation of this thing has got me feelin kinda funky but not in a good way. Anyways parents are being usual parents and that's starting to bug me too. Why do so many things get me revved and bummed..
Maybe its all in my head,,or not
-*L*B*

happened again..

never let feelings get the best of you.
-*L*B*

spring break full of work??

thats right, i dont have the most relaxed spring break -.-

i mean i have math homework and just a teeny bit of lit and comp homework, so its not the worst but i still have to memorize like ten frank sinatra songs and of course youtube helps but not alot and i dont read sheet music so i cant follow along perfectly and i need to memorize all the lyrics because when i get back its nonstop lunch rehearsals and block 7's and the boys are gonna have more since we're gonna do this whole rat pack thing and its like a big bomb exploding in my face! asdfghjkl
so ya for the next week imma just be listening to my songsday in and day out (with the occasional reading of a book and hanging out with someone)
#funstuff?maybe not
-*L*B*

p.s. when im bored i like to look at fire :P its just mee

$tR3sSEd

Ok so this hasn't been the most fun day since after school. I'm sitting on the couch before I have to get back to work!
My schoolwork to do list:
1. Record and blah blah blah finish my song for lit and comp
2. Do the write up for that up there ^
3. Study my songs for this other project as well as study for the science test tomorrow

~~~~~so much for going to be by 8:45
-*L*B*

anger

its never enough. nothing is ever enough. i work my butt off for good grades. be involved in extracurricular things that i'm occasionally even pushed into doing. be responsible and everything. but its never enough, theres always that constant "no". i mean yes i realize the little things they do for me and im grateful,,but come on. i constantly do my personal best and its never enough. will it ever be enough?

ANGRY

no one likes you.

theres always that joking around of those words, i'll admit i use them sometimes too even if its joking. although i never realize how close they can strike at your heart

-*L*B*

alone.

Today has got me feeling strangely odd. I feel like something's not right...I wish some of my friends would answer their phone. I hope they're not ignoring me...ugh anxiety
-*L*B*

life

heyy everyone! its saturday morning, and this is like my actual first post. i just had lunch (shrimp yum!) and im just thinking of thoughts. while listening to "Suggestions" by Orelia. pretty deep song. anyway, with my thoughts of life. it brings me back to a book we read in literature and composition (fancy schamncy term for language arts).
the books called Farenheit 451, by Ray Bradbury. it deals with this technologically obsessed society. it brings up many questions including that of being "truly happy". then i wonder if im "truly happy"? i mean, i am way better compared to how i was last summer. i lost, depressed, anxiety-ridden soul. but even now that im in a better place, a better school, with better friends, i contemplate. like im at this school for singing and acting, but i dont always hang with those classmates, i hang with different art oriented people. i dont hang occasionally with my classmates because i feel like the outcast. maybe its just me? or maybe its because my classmates and i are made different?? idk. whatever. i know for the moment i may not be rainbows and sunshine, but im not skulls and death.
That can do for now,

-*L*B*

First post

k idk if anyone will read this, but this blog is about my life. enjoy?(: